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Post by Kibbles on Nov 5, 2015 2:21:56 GMT
This wasn't like him. He had never been taught to get along with others. He had never been taught to follow anybody. He wasn't a follower. He wasn't a leader, either. He was a loner. A rogue. He kept to himself. He hunted for himself. He killed to protect himself. He did everything for himself. So what had made things so different now?
"Everyone did a good job t'day. We can do some more t'morrah. Take wat ya did ta the nursery so that ya can line their nests. Yea, I saw yours, Poolpaw. Yea, ya can come ta tomorrahs lesson. Go on now."
He watched as the cats carried off the pelts towards the nursery. The older cats seemed a bit disgusted, but the young ones were excited.
What made these cats different from the others? They were cats. Old, young, tom, she-cat, healthy, sick. Nothing he hadn't seen before. things he'll continue to see until his eyes lost their own light. He didn't understand why he felt so attached to these cats.
He didn't understand why some looked up to him. Why he was being thanked every day for what he did. Patching up dens, hunting, stripping prey of their skin late at night so that cats wouldn't freeze to death.
Mistlepaw. Rosepaw. Starlingfur, even. All of them looked to him like he had come from Starclan and was the clan's guardian angel. He wasn't. He was a cat raised in a rough family and had come out the 'weakest' one.
The weakest one. He wasn't strong like his brother. His brother would have left those kits without a second thought. They weren't his problem. His brother would have watched these cats freeze. They weren't his family. His brother would have let Starlingfur work herself to death. She was unimportant.
But not to Bramblenose. No. Everyone here was important in some way.
Rosepaw and Mistlepaw. He had saved them from the tom who had killed their mother. He had brought them back here. He had watched them grow up along side the other kits. He didn't talk to them much. He was even a bit mean to him, although it was on accident. And yet, they wanted him to be around. They wanted him to play with them and train them.
Starlingfur. He had helped her patch up the apprentice's den. He had told her to stop working herself to death. He had told her to rest. And he promised her that he would help keep the clan alive this winter. If anyone froze to death while in the camp, it would be on him. He had promised that this tactic would work. Would it really?
Ravenface. He had saved her from Sweetie, whom they had both thought was a coyote at the time. He had risked his life so that she could life and continue her work to save the sick cats.
What did everyone see in him? Strength? Hope? A Hero? He was none of those. He wasn't trained to be any of those. He was nothing but a grumpy tom. And these thoughts made his breath quicken. He had to get out of here. Get some fresh air.
His paws took him outside of the camp. They took him for a walk, blue eyes staring at the ground, but ears perked to listen out for anything that could harm him. His head was low and so was his tail as he stalked through the forest, heading to no where in particular. He had no where to go. No one to meet. So he just stalked and stalked. Paws placed lightly and expertly on the ground as if he was hunting.
Then, he realized he was at the border between Cedarclan and Marshclan. He could hear the rushing of the river and looked at it. It moved too quickly for it to freeze during the leaf-bare. Its waves rushing down to the lake.
He walked half way down the bridge and sat down on the edge, looking at the water. His eyes glossed over in thought, but ears still listening for anything, or anyone, that might try and sneak up on him.
The cold was coming. Yet, all he could see was the fire that was slowly consuming him. The fire that threatened him if he failed anybody in the clan. The fire that his family had set. He was not meant to be around others, the fire would consume them too.
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Post by Shad on Nov 5, 2015 3:57:29 GMT
The shecat had been following Brambenose. Ever since he left the camp. Ever since he left the den. Although a large and sturdy creature, her paws steps were like that of her inner nature, light and gentle. Not hiding or stealthy, oh no, that was far beyond what a mere queen with no training could manage, but neither were her steps hard and heavy, pulsing against the forest floor. They were simply there, gentle, persistent, and patient as the seasons. Deep blue eyes watched the tom Bramblenose from the safety of the treeline as he went out to stand over the thundering falls that would make any cat's heart quicken. You did not have to be afraid of heights to be afraid of falling, especially with a roaring whirlpool to greet you at the bottom. A moment passed, then two. It almost seemed as if the Warrior's Shadow had finally met the limits of her willingness to follow. And then Swanstrike took that first pawstep out onto the bridge. The shecat's steps were more pronounced now, as she hesitantly, slowly, painstakingly, picked her way over to Bramblenose's side. It seemed almost as if she was afraid each individual board could break and fall out from under her at any moment. The queen was not a brave or fearless cat by any means, but she was a loving and curious one -both of which prodded her forward now, one heartstopping step at a time. Finally - Stars Bless, Finally!- she made it. She settled down just a taillength or so away from where the tom brooded, staring into the swirling vortex of foam and water as if searching for answers. Swanstrike bit her lip, not wanting to disturb him. She looked down into the falls with a thoughtful frown on her face, clearly trying to imagine what it was he saw. Eugh. She had to look away. It was making her dizzy just watching. The queen shuddered, but still the tom was thoughtful. She did not want to bother him. She tried to think of other ways to occupy her time until he was less busy with his thoughts. She twitched her tail. She flicked a bit of spray off her whiskers. Another tail flick. She looked over at the Marsh Clan border. The large, powerful looking queen shrank down fearfully into a low crouch as she watched the empty marshes. She hoped no one would come by. She did not want to cause any trouble. She had heard about poor Patchpaw. Upon meeting Marsh Clan's Patchpaw, Swanstrike was quite sure not all Marsh Clan cats were bad, but upon meeting Patchpaw's angry leader, Duskblaze, she was quite sure not all of them were good either. But Bramblenose knew what he was doing, right? Deep blue eyes fell on the tom now. He was smaller than her, although that did not mean much. Almost all cats were. He fur was short, a nice tabby pattern that reminded her of Hawkkit, but the eyes were wrong. Completely wrong. Those eyes were too tired, too old and worn to belong to a kit, and Swanstrike hoped she would never see those eyes passed on to Hawkkit either, although she knew there was nothing she could do about that. Kits grew up. It was a fact of life. She had long ago accepted that every kit she took into her heart would grow up soon enough and have need of her no more. Some kept up the bond, letting her love for them bloom and grow all the more, but most grew out of their childhood Warden. Most, Swanstrike would have but a paltry few moons with, before they were loosed out into the big, fierce world where she could not protect them. The queen knew this. She accepted it, although on cold, lonely days she still pined for all those that she had lost. And now she was getting lost in her own thoughts while staring at the tom. Swanstrike blinked. Her stare must have attracted his notice by now, even if she had only been daydreaming. Now was as good a time to talk as any. "I saw your class," she mewed finally. "You are a good teacher." She was not sure where to start, but that seemed as good a spot as any.
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Post by Kibbles on Nov 6, 2015 2:17:44 GMT
He had heard her cross the bridge. He didn't look, though. No matter how light she placed her paws, they would always be too heavy to be a cat of normal size. And yet, too light to be anything bigger. He just didn't look, feeling as if he didn't need to. Not until she spoke, of course. And until she did, he would just stare at the dizzying water below.
And then a few moments passed of silence. Concerning, perhaps. His blue eyes glanced at her to see that she was staring at him. No, not at him. Her eyes showed that she was seeing something far away, but she was facing him. So he just looked back at her, waiting for her to realize what she was doing. It didn't take long before she was blinking herself back into reality. And she spoke.
He didn't say anything. He didn't feel like there was anything he could say to that anyways. So he nodded once to show his appreciation to the compliment. And he just looked at her for a moment longer before looking at the water below again.
Surely she hadn't followed him all the way out here so that she could tell him that. She could have told him right after the lesson, or waited until he had come back to camp.
"What'd ya follo' me out here for?" he asked bluntly. He wasn't one for sweet talk. He wanted to know what was wrong. Cut to the chase. Kill the mouse already. Fix the wound. You get the idea. Just tell him what you needed and let him be on his merry way. Alone.
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Post by Shad on Nov 6, 2015 4:26:33 GMT
The tom did not answer, merely cut to the chase. Swanstrike had, of course, run into cats similar to this in her time. More often than not, their conversations did not go well and repeats could not be expected to fair much better. The gentle queen was quiet and meandering with her speech, sometimes talking for minutes on end before reaching her point, and sometimes she forgot it entirely and was forced to try again. Short and quick was difficult for her, unnatural in the most basic level. Still, she had followed him all the way out here, and while the shecat might be fearful cat, she was not a coward. Besides, this had been bubbling inside her for too long. Agitating. Scratching and clawing under her fur. She had to get it out, accept it, for she feared she would go mad. "To talk," she mewed, looking down at her paws sheepishly. There. That was short. Concise. The queen waited, but it seemed she had been too short because now the tom was not saying anything. Well... She flicker her tail towards the falls. "What were you thinking about?" she asked, trying to get conversation going. Past experience said this was a bad plan when dealing with cut-and-dry cats like Bramblenose seemed to be, and she winced internally even as she said it, but she was more than a bit nervous and not at all sure how to go about this. She had never had this problem before. She did not know how Clan Cats dealt with it. She was not sure how she should deal with it. She was scared, and nervous, and timid. She needed something to distract her, even if it was only slightly, before she took the plunge.
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Post by Kibbles on Nov 8, 2015 22:32:16 GMT
Bramblenose huffed once. To talk. Is that all queens did was talk? What could she have to say to him? What could he have to say to her? Nothing. They knew nothing about each other. The only thing that connected them was Rosepaw and Mistlepaw. And that they were in the same clan. But that was it. Plus, he wasn't a talker in the first place. He had nothing to share with others and if he did, he would have already come out and said it.
"The past. Nothin' importan'. Why?" he asked, his blue eyes meeting hers. He stared into them, although there were mixed emotions. Annoyance? Curiosity? Both? A bunch of different emotions, although not landing on a particular one for too long.
He noticed that she seemed a bit stiff. Nervous. He could see by the shifting of her eyes that she didn't want to look into his for too long. His blue eyes wondered down her so that they looked at her paws now. Claws sheathing and unsheathing into the bridge below them. Tail tip flicking a bit too quickly to be comfortable.
She was definitely nervous. But Bramblenose wasn't sure if it was because of the rushing water below, which was spraying them as they sat there, or if it was because he was being a complete badger at the moment.
((OOC: If I need to change anything, just shoot me a message~))
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Post by Shad on Nov 9, 2015 6:00:17 GMT
The tom's response made the soft white queen's lips curl into a knowing smile, her eyes flicking to meet his with remembered pains lurking in their blue depths. "In my experiences, the 'unimportant' pasts are usually the most so, we just wish that they weren't, -and that we could forget."Then her dark eyes were flicking away again, back to her paws in a sheepish manner. "Although, as a Warrior, perhaps you have never faced such a thing," she mewed softly. Silence. The gentle shecat was not sure what to do. She did not know where to go with this. She was not even sure she could go through with it! If Bramblenose thought she was going too far... An image flashed in Swanstrike's mind of her being evicted from the Nursery, of never teaching kits again, of losing everything she had spent half a year building. It felt like a claw digging sharply into her chest, and for a moment she could not breathe for the pain of it. In the next moment though, she saw Rosekit and Mistlekit, happy and smiling, curled save around her side to sleep, and the queen's big, fat heart broke. How could she choose? Oh, but she knew who would win. Those two... they were special. Incredible. Mistlepaw was so smart, so clever and caring. Rosepaw, now he was quieter, but you get him talking and he would go. Once you found his interest, his deep golden eyes would light up with an inner fire that made the old queen's heart soar with pride and love. "Were you part of the old clans?" the shecat asked. She had heard Starlingfur's kits babbling about them. Apparently there had been clans before this. Clans that failed. It did not sit well with the queen. The Tribe was stable. Safe and Ancient as the stars. By comparison, these clans were still in their infancy. Hearing that they had already fallen to ruin and war once, hardly instilled confidence in their ideals. Swanstrike was not looking to cause trouble, just to get Bramblenose talking, maybe he would slip up and let some glimmer of Mistlepaw's wellfair trickle down to her, but she could not deny in her heart that as she said the words she sought... comfort. The massive queen did not expect such a thing, mind, as she looked out over the frothing falls, but it was painful when she thought back to her Tribe. On the dark nights when she looked wistfully up through the trees and imagined what it would feel like to see their frosted peaks once more. Back there, back then, she had been surrounded by Tribesmen all full of love and caring and comfort when life was uncertain. Here she was surrounded by clanmates and, while she had the beginnings of a relationship with many, she felt a true connection with few. She longed for the familial bonds the Tribe had shared, and the peace their presence had given one another. -But not always. An image of Stone, huge and towering, his face contorted with fury as his eyes spat burning fire in a rage that would leave her struggling to stay conscious on the den floor flashed in the shecat's mind and she could not contain the terrified flinch that jerked through her. No. The Tribe had not been perfect, but were these Clans better? If Swanstrike had never met Stone, had never touch that one evil cat, could she honestly say she felt the same way about her old home? She hardly knew.
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Post by Kibbles on Nov 10, 2015 23:45:03 GMT
Bramblenose raised part of his lip in disgust, only revealing one of his fangs. What did she want? She could have talked to anyone back in the camp. What did she want to talk about with him? Especially since he had nothing to say to her. They weren't friends. They weren't family. There was no reason for them to talk.
He turned and looked down at the waves below and wondered what would happen if he just jumped in. What would Swanstrike do if he just jumped in? Would she try to save him? He had seen the way she had been looking at those crashing waves that was only a few tail lengths below them. Would she be too scared to? Or would she let him drown?
Then another question came from her, causing his thoughts to flutter away like butterflies. He took in a deep breath and let out a sigh.
"No. I wasn't part of the clans before."
Simple and short.
And then she flinched. His blue eyes gazed at her curiously. He hadn't moved and there wasn't anything out here that would harm either of them at the moment. Nor had she almost fallen in, as she hadn't been moving. So what had she been scared about?
"Haunting memories?" he asked, voice short and gruff as usual.
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