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Post by Shad on Sept 18, 2015 4:17:57 GMT
Raven The silver shecat's paws felt wet. Her heartbeat was erratic at best. Her fur itched with apprehension. Her eyes darted at every stray sound. Even if she did not want to, she had to admit the truth in light of these facts: She was scared. No. She was terrified. What had she been thinking coming here? What foolishness was this on her part? What did she think would happen? She would run into her brother, smile and hug, shed tears of joy at the reunion, talk about their adventures, and fall into the old patterns as easily as water from a waterfall. They would be brother and sister again. Raven would have a family again. A reason for living. Yeah. No. Not ever gonna happen.The shecat swallowed the lump in her throat and scented the air. She hardly remembered what Bolt's scent had been like as kits, and it would have changed when his body went through puber- Nope. Not going there. I might not have seen him in years but he's still my brother and I'm still not going there.
He has grown up and had kits. Several in fact.
Still not going there!Her more practical side snorted but Raven ignored it. -She would not be able to ignore it much longer though. She picked up the thread of her brother's scent, or at least the scent that had been in his nest. She assumed it was him. She hoped it was him. She also hoped it wasn't. Silently slipping over the ground was not Raven's specialty and so she took to the trees. Cedar Clan land was thick with them, almost to the point of choking all other plant life to death with their massive tree roots. She nimbly leaped from branch to branch, eyes scanning the floor. Hopefully. Fearfully. Then she saw him. Raven nearly lost her grip on the limb she had just landed on and almost dropped straight to the ground, a blunder that might have crippled her from this height. He... looks so old.
Well, he is old. You are too, if you want to go there.Raven could not even come up with a witty remark as she stared at the kit she had not seen in moons. The kit that had become a man while she was away -and lived a life she had never been a part of. In that moment, Raven regretting never returning to the forest more than she ever had before. She had always wanted to, always felt drawn back to find her home, her family, but she had been so afraid nothing would have changed. Even now, as she watched the cat she longed to know -the kit she had once been closer to than any other soul in the world, she found herself clinging to a tree branch, hidden away by shadows and leaves, too petrified to move. What if he doesn't remember me? a small, terrified voice whispered to her. Or, what if he does?
If he asks where I've been, what can I say? If he asks what I've done, what is there to tell?Raven's claws dug deeply into the tree's bark as she watched the tom. She wanted to talk to him. She wanted to see how much of the cat she once knew was left. She wanted to run. She wanted to get out of this forest as quickly as she could. She could not decide what to do. She felt lost... and scared. However, Raven had never been a coward when duty called. She had one, primal response to fear: Ruthlessness. I came all this way, she growled, I am meeting him. And if he turns out to be a total jerk, I'll just kill him, bury him in the bushes, and blame it on wild coyotes so there, she decided finally. The shecat slipped down the tree with a practiced ease and landed with a soft thump behind the black splashed white tom. "Yo. What's up, Dolt?"
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Post by Thunderstruck on Sept 18, 2015 4:34:15 GMT
Boltfang had quite the day ahead of him, a long day of occupying his time because he wasn't asked to do anything. Boltfang hadn't really gotten many responsibilities in this new clan. In fact his contributions (while comparable to other clanmates) to the fresh-kill pile had been completely of his own accord. He had never been asked once. He didn't understand it, but then again...
They don't like you.
Oh here we go again...
What?! it's the truth!
You always say that, Did you even pay attention to the past moon? We have a family on the way!
You have a family on the way...
That means you do too..
Right...
Don't get so excited, you might explode.
Ha. Ha. Ha. You're so original.... Hey bolt, think fast!
Wha-
"Wha-"
Boltfang's whole body turned quicker than any other cat would have expected, as he instinctively drew his claws, But when the cat spoke and he looked her over, he put his claws away and slowly relaxed. It was the new she-cat. Starlingfur had mentioned something about her to the others, he had been half paying attention half focused on his inner debate about why Voles were his favorite food. She was suppose to be important, but he didn't know why. But when she greeted him, something about her voice, sounded so familiar. As well as the compliment. Instinctively the other half of his mind responded with something that felt very natural.
"Oh lovely, the only flightless Raven in the forest, did your family leave you here again?"
Harsh....
Where did that come from...
I thought you said it...
I don't know here, but That felt right...
It did....
Do we know her?
Maybe?
Boltfang's face was overtaken with confusion at what he just said. He didn't know where it came from. He couldn't place it but he felt like he knew her.
You should say something...
You've said enough....
Just do it...
"I umm... I Heard that you came to see me, but it's only fair to warn you... I Lost my memory a while ago..."
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Post by Shad on Sept 18, 2015 4:59:42 GMT
Raven The shecat felt an infectious smile spread across her lips and an old warmth curl in her chest. It was so old, so deeply engraved but hidden by years of dust and pain, she had almost forgotten its very existence, but she remembered it now and it burned like a cheerful fire. Not the bad kind that scorched flesh and turned all it touched to ashes, but the good kind. The kind that kept a cat warm even in the most endless winter, and Raven definitely felt like such a cat. Her life had been cold for too long, far too long. "Family? What family?" she scoffed. She lowered herself into a crouch, tail lashing and pale eyes glistening with play. "I just came here to make myself an only child. Hold still for me, will ya?"She was ready to pounce and get up a good scuffle going when a look of confusion fell over her brother's face. She rose out of her crouch, shock plain on her face as his words fell heavy on her ears. "... I lost my memory a while ago..." I don't remember you.The words were as plain and obvious as if he had said them aloud and they hung in the air between the two cats as Raven's inner fire died and what was left of her heart crumpled in on itself. It only took a moment, only the span of a few heartbeats, for that fragile flame to be snuffed out by the howling winters that had surrounded her for so many moons, threatening to bury her under their cold snows. As the tom watched, the shecat seemed to cave in on herself. Her shoulders and tail dropped. Her playfully risen fur lay flat and lifeless. Her eyes dulled and she simply seemed... less. Less vibrant. Less real. Less alive. The beautiful silver shecat who had seemed so brilliantly vigorous just a heatbeat before now looked like the cat she really was. The cat that had lived through too much and been given too little. The cat that was, at her very core, broken. Maybe beyond repair. "Oh," she mewed softly. Something was wrong with her voice. It sounded so quiet, so dead. Her dull eyes dropped to her paws without really seeing them. She sat, as if standing was more effort than she could muster. She curled her tail around her paws tightly. As if that would make things better. As if that would keep her together. As if that would keep her from falling apart. "I..." her tone was so soft, so quiet and weak. The faintest breeze could almost snatch it away. "I was your sister. Once. I was gone for a long time. I wasn't sure if you would even want me to come back. I wouldn't have bothered you except... Except lately I've lost so much and I don't know what to do anymore." Her voice broke at the end of the sentence. She had to clear her throat to start again. "I just..." Raven's vision was blurry and her cheeks felt wet. She just what? Why was she even here if he didn't even remember her? "I just wanted to know if I could be that cat again. The cat that had a family. Once."
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Post by Thunderstruck on Sept 18, 2015 19:19:43 GMT
Way to go Doltfang!, You made your sister cry.
YOU TOLD ME TO TELL HER!
YOU LISTENED!
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Boltfang wasn't heartless, much as others might like to believe, he spent his time away from everyone for this reason. But something about this cat crying made him angry, not that she was crying to him, no in fact he didn't mind that much at all. Strange in itself as that was, Boltfang was angry because he made her cry, and he couldn't take it back. A small look of sympathy washed over his face before he opened his mouth to say something, but nothing came out. He couldn't say anything to that. He may as well have pushed her off a cliff while he was at it.
You can't do anything right.
WE ARE NOT HAVING THIS CONVERSATION AGAIN!
Who's this we? Their is only you.
And you..
But I'm you...
STOP CONFUSING ME!
Easier said than done...
....
Well it's true....
Screw you mousebreath!
Foxheart
Thistlebrained
Dumbass
Dumber ass
Wow, aren't you coming up with the insults today... Need i remind you, you're sister is sitting in front of you, probably thinking you've gone crazy.
I THINK THIS CONSTITUTES AS CRAZY!
Boltfang sighed quietly before he began.
"You went away for a while, but you came back, looking for me. Because you wanted.... our family to be one again?"
Boltfang had to admit, she had some guts just showing up. He wouldn't have the courage to stumble up to her if the pelt(Shoe) was on the other cat(Foot). Regardless he couldn't just ignore here, she was here now. He couldn't just ignore her on principal. She was family, and something both his minds would always agree on was this.
"Family is family, no matter how far apart you are. Or how long it's been."
And it was true, Boltfang did always have a sense of family. Never wanting to forget where he came from or who had an impact on him. And this was his sister, what cat in their right mind would turn that away? And Boltfang's not even in His right mind.
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Post by Shad on Sept 19, 2015 1:08:13 GMT
Raven The shecat did not look at the tom. She couldn't. She rose to her paws to step closer to the tom. To feel someone beside her. To stop the horrible emptiness inside that threatened to swallow her whole. She brushed her shoulder against the tom's. Warm. He was warm. Or did she just feel cold? Cold as the snow that had pelted her for moons without any sign of stopping. Destroying the landscape of her heart as surely as frost killed off most things in Leafbare. Raven let herself rest her head against the tom's side. "Bolt, you... you aren't my brother anymore, are you?" the mew was quiet, hardly more than a whisper but it still burned the air and sucked away all of the oxygen until neither cat could breathe. Or maybe that was just the pain. The sharp kick in the gut for both of them as the truth was laid out plainly. Bolt, Raven's brother, was lost, and this new cat wearing his skin was not what the broken shecat needed most right now. He was not enough to save her. "My brother..." Raven's body tensed, a sob about to burst through her chest. "-was never this gullible."The shecat moved quick as a viper and tackled the unwary tom. Bolt had always been the better fighter -but that was only if the siblings played fair, and Raven always fought dirty. The shecat kicked his front paws out, shoved all her weight into his shoulders, and toppled him on his side to the ground. There was no escape at this close range and the poor warrior had been blindsided. Not giving the tom time to react, she promptly sat on him, and farted, beaming down with a jeering grin. "You really thought I would just curl up and cry like a wuss? Ha! Puh-leaze. You are still such a Dolt. Did you think you were the only stubborn one in our family or something?"The tom could easily dislodge Raven. She was still half his size and likely a third of his weight. Raven seemed completely unfazed though as she laughed. "You seriously don't remember anything, do you? Man. Sucks to be you, but rocks to be me. You don't know any of my tricks anymore."
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Post by Thunderstruck on Sept 19, 2015 1:50:12 GMT
Boltfang toppled over easily as the shecat forced herself on top of him. He was utterly confused but didn't seem to fight it, instead he just listened to her laugh and lay on the dirt. Something about this made him relax more than he had felt in a long time. He longed to remember why he felt this way. If only he could, all the warm days he couldn't remember. His own mothers face was little more than a blurred out picture in the background of an empty sea. But for now he was happy to just feel this relaxed.
"Not a thing... Well... Not a thing past a certain point. Shortly before I got here, in fact."
After a little bit of quiet thought Boltfang looked up at the cat planet squarely on his side. He was to lazy to push her off, so instead he just hissed at her.
"Oh man that stinks... What did you eat?"
Boltfang began to slowly squirm out of His sisters grasp. Her stink had flooded his nose for the last time. And yet, even that disgusting stench that clung to the inside of his nose, also gave Boltfang a comfort he didn't know he was missing. Someone who could understand him better than he could himself.
This is bad...
Why?
You're becoming comfortable with her...
Why is that bad....
Because you don't deserve happiness.
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Post by Shad on Sept 19, 2015 10:54:40 GMT
Raven The shecat settled down quite comfortably on her brother's side, kneading his fur and purring in satisfaction at getting to be on top. Oh yeah. It was good to be small sometimes. At the tom's question, Raven blinked and her stomach rumbled exceptionally loudly. "A three-day old mouse and some berries... roughly 2.825 days ago," she informed him, making a face. "It... did not exactly taste good. And there might have been a few ants on it. Or a lot of ants on it. It was definitely very spicy. All for your smelling pleasure, brother dearest."Raven was not a good hunter in the best of situations. What with her travelling, she had been too busy to waste the several hours it would take for her to catch even the simplest of meals. When on her own, she mostly lived off roots and berries, something she had never minded but nutritionally she knew she needed meat in her diet. She had stumbled upon the mouse by chance. It had simply died of old age it seemed and had been half-eaten by insects but before that... Raven started to count the days since she had eaten prey but it was too depressing so she stopped. Essentially, she had needed to eat something other than roots to keep up her strength and the carrion had been the only thing available. Then she had gotten onto clan land the next day and had not dared to hunt. She had collected too much data regarding the fierce protectiveness of clan cats over their prey. Spending all day walking, then being led to the Clan's Camp where she did not want to take prey without permission meant that as of today... Er, yeah. It had been a little while, but the shecat scoffed it off. "Pfft, food. Who needs food? You eat some and then you just need more in a few hours all over again. Might as well not eat it at all."Then, seemingly without warning, Raven paused in her kneading to reach out and smack Bolt's face. Not enough to hurt, or even enough to start up a good tussle, but more like she was demanding his attention. "Hey," she snapped, "No thinking.""You say you forgot everything so that means I know more than you and that means I'm in charge." She proclaimed with a proud purr. Her pale eyes narrowed and a grin spread over her face. "And before you go protesting my rules, you should be reminded that the 'no thinking' one is your rule."This much was actually true. Raven remembered, even if her brother did not. She had hardly begun taking on her lady-like persona. Learning what being another cat on the outside meant, and learning what real isolation felt when buried the truth of who you were. The cats around her had been happy with her new, 'more acceptable' attitude and yet Raven had felt as if a wall had been erected between her and the world. She had wanted to be closer to others, but she was not sure anymore if lying was the right way to go about it. Cue her big fat Dolt of a brother. Bolt had not stood for her nonsense for one second. He had tackled her, pinned her, and tickled her until she was half-suffocated from laughter and cramps and tossing out every bad, non-lady-like word she knew, swearing vengeance. Bolt did not want a Lady or walls between them. He wanted Raven, his sister. He made her swear to cut out all that weird thinking. She informed him she couldn't think anymore because he had nearly killed her and would he please let her breathe for half a second now! -but she did. No thinking. No walls. Not between them. And she got washed away down a river a pawful of days later. The shecat was not thinking of this memory now. She continued kneading her brother's fur (Bolt had always liked the massage and Raven liked the height, it seemed this had not changed with age) and found herself surprised by the scars, some faint some fresh, she felt under the tom's coat. "I guess I can't ask you about your life then," she grumbled. "It was probably boring anyway. What do you remember though? Cats? Places? That one fight you got into last week when you ate too much catnip?" She was joking but she honestly would not be too surprised if that last one was the only thing he remembered. Her brother had always been battle-oriented. And hunting-oriented, at least, compared to her. He got the sharp claws and she got the sharp tongue. It was alright. Bolt had never begrudged her for hogging the obviously better part of the gene pool and she loved him anyway despite his tragic disabilities.
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Post by Thunderstruck on Sept 19, 2015 17:46:23 GMT
"Ants!? Are you serious! Yuck! Ewww!"
Boltfang couldn't stand the smell any longer, he shook his head and started forcing air out of his nose in an attempt to get the stench to evacuate his nose. When Raven began massaging him though he slowly relaxed, his mind drifted to some warm summer day. Something about the motion of his sisters paws made his anxiety melt away. It was perfect for a brief moment, before she smacked him. Boltfang sat up almost instantly, It wasn't hard, but it shocked him. His eyes narrowed at his sister as the smile grew on her face.
"You're really treading on thin Ice bird brain."
Boltfang's eyes softened and he relaxed and lay back down. When his sister finally asked about his past, a small chill went down his spine. He could feel her paws brushing over his scars, and some of them still stung. His history was written all over his body, but he couldn't read the writing. With a small sigh he turned to face her and began with a small smile on his face.
"Well I have a mate and kits on the way... And I I had a clan, but that's about as far back as I can remember. A few faces here and there, Some memories are blurry.... A lot of other cats use to tell me I don't want to remember what i was, but no one tells me why"
Boltfang sighed. What was his previous life like? He knew he didn't want to know, but that didn't bring him any comfort.
"But, none of it matters anymore, you know? I'm still breathing, I think..."
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Post by Shad on Sept 19, 2015 20:08:07 GMT
Raven The shecat felt her brother's sadness and wished she had more data. She wished she had come back sooner, wished she could help him fill in the blanks. Or gaping holes as it were. She had no better clue as to what kind of cat he had been than he did himself. "I know a few bits and pieces," she told him. "From the old clans. I know you had a mate named Fernheat or something like that and you two had a whole brood of kits. Apparently there was something important going on with you starting your own clan full of them. Cats seemed to be quite intimidated by you and thought you were a troublemaker." The shecat snorted. "Like that changed anything. The only difference between you as a kit, you then, and you now from what I can tell is that you're bigger and less fluffy."The silver shecat's head drifted to the side as a thought seemed to curl around her and catch her attention. "So, your mate now... Is she nice? Does she love you?"
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Post by Thunderstruck on Sept 19, 2015 20:40:27 GMT
Boltfang's nose twitched. His sister detailed to him, rather eloquently, his history. So he was a troublemaker, nothing new there.
Are you surprised?
Not really...
That makes 2 of us
Boltfang sighed again and laid back. Suppose his life was different. Where would he be if he had never became a clan cat... Would his life be any different? Would he have this memory loss? Probably not. He would have been with his sister and maybe his parents. Wait... HAD a mate?! Boltfang sat up quickly once again.
"I still have a mate, Fernheart! oh..."
Boltfang relaxed and then met his sisters gaze.
"She's nice.... I hope she still loves me, She seemed to be happy when We found each other a moon ago. And now you're going to be an aunt. I would say that counts as love, i think... But enough about me, where have you been?"
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Post by Shad on Sept 23, 2015 3:01:58 GMT
Raven The silver shecat's ears popped up and her expression brightened at this. "Oh! Seriously?" Now that she knew Bolt was still with his mate, her jeering grin was back. "You mean a shecat actually has the patience to be mated to you for that long? Holy holly!. Bolt, you better stick that shecat to you like pollen to a bee's butt because no other shecat would be that crazy!" She wrinkled her nose as something seemed to occur to her. "Well, except me -but I'm not crazy." She stressed the last part with obvious sarcasm. Nope.
Definitely not.
Raven laughed. "You really have to introduce me to her. Or I can just find her on my own. I've got a whole bunch of gre~at stories I could share. Like that time you stomped through poison ivy. Or the time you gnawed on my yew branch and barfed all over Mom's nest."The shecat's eyes positively gleamed and she hopped off of her brother, safely out of clawing distance. She tossed her head at his mention of her future status and swished her tail dismissively. "Psh. Please. I would never be someone's 'aunt'. Now, 'Awesomely-Cool Super Aunt' is a title that might fit better." The shecat beamed. "I promise to teach your kits all they care to know about briars in nests, mice with berries hidden inside, and how to tickle-tackle you, all before their fourth moons. Aren't I just the best?"Then the question she had been dreading came up. And, honestly? It was not as bad as she had feared. No, she had not built a clan or turned herself into a leader but she had... Raven shrugged. "This and that." she said casually. "I spent some time in a lighthouse, spent some time in the mountains, and now maybe I'll spend some time here. Wandering is nice-" It really wasn't actually. It was lonely. "-but it might be nice to have a home for a while... Maybe." Now when the shecat smiled at her brother it was not brimming with the arrogance and confidence that seemed to bleed out from every hair on her pelt. It was more reserved and, if a cat could believe it, genuinely hesitant. The Clan had welcomed her, sure, but Bolt was her brother. It might seem petty, or lame, but... well... She just wanted to double check that he wanted her back. To make sure. Of course she knew that he did. Clearly it was obvious. And who would not want her, right? Psh. It was totally a done deal anyway. But the shecat still felt a small ounce of tension creep under her skin as her words hung, waiting, in the air. Waiting for what Bolt would tell her this time.
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Post by Thunderstruck on Sept 23, 2015 3:18:33 GMT
Boltfang's nose twitched as Raven went on about his mate. Though he did have to admit, somewhere in her words, and somewhere floating in the back of his darkest thoughts. she probably had a point. Boltfang would never admit that though, he was happy just to have someone. He could probably do without the stories though, the mention of yew logs made his stomach churn. He looked his sister over and then eyed her with annoyance.
"All the basics huh, You're lacking in a few of those areas yourself sis."
A small smile crawled across his face as he stretched and stood up. So she had been wandering like he was, though probably longer. He didn't understand how she could enjoy wandering alone though, it drove him mad.
"At least you had fun in your time alone, I spent the better part of a year walking in circles with my own thoughts. The moral of the story is don't forget to use the bathroom before bed when you eat hedgehogs, the morning is not kind.... Uh... anyway.... the point is, life is a lot more depressing when you're the only one who can get mad at yourself."
That made so much sense, you should be leader!
Ha, ha, get over yourself...
that sucked, you suck.
YOU don't get a vote.
FINE
FINE
Boltfang's ears twitched as his sister spoke. Her voice and just way it trailed off at the end made him tilt his head in confusion.
"A while? Where the hell are you going to go after this?! Show up and just plan on leaving, lameee...."
Boltfang's imitated his sisters voice, crunching his face and flattening his ears as he spoke.
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Post by Shad on Sept 24, 2015 2:22:09 GMT
Raven The shecat's tension melted as a harsh laugh burst its way through her. Oh gorse. That image. She couldn't breathe. She could. not. breathe. Tears of laughter swelled in the corners of her eyes and she had to force them back down as she attempted to suck down gulps of air. When she finally could stop again, the air quieted and she found herself giving her brother a soft, warm smile. Yeah. She had missed this. She had missed having someone at her back, even as they tripped you up with their latest gag in the front. "I missed you, Dolt," she told him. "Family sucks, but no family sucks even more. "... ........ ...............
"I'm glad I have you as a brother."........................... ...................................................... ............................................................................. Raven's stomach grumbled loudly. Ending the moment. She laughed again then got a suspicious, crafty look in her eyes. "So, you were out here hunting, ri~ight?"
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Post by Thunderstruck on Sept 24, 2015 2:57:24 GMT
Boltfang's eyes light up as his sister began to laugh. The infectious disease began to spread to him and soon he was laughing just as hard as she was. In the quiet forest, the laughter of two cats echoed off the trees. As the laughter slowed and Boltfang's lungs had time to relax, two things became obviously clear. His lungs hurt, quite a lot. And his life was starting to change for the better. He nodded as Raven spoke.
"No family sucks more than I ever thought it could."
Boltfang's ears twitched at his sisters affection and he smiled, he was glad she was here, even if he didn't remember her, the ties of family were stronger than a little amnesia, and for once that little voice in the back of his mind was silent, and that peace of mind made Bolt feel comfortable again.
He frowned as she reminded him of his task, and now she was hungry.
"... Why do I get the feeling I'm going to be doing all the work..."
Boltfang stood up and moaned as he trotted off into the forest after his, and now his sisters, lunch. More work.....
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